You Learn as You Go

 There's an old 90's country song with lyrics stating "Life's a dance you learn as you go.  Sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow." I have found that to be very true. There will be spots in life that will be easy and others that will be a challenge. As long as you learn from mistakes that's really all that matters. 

  In 2014, I started on this journey of self discovery. I had always colored in the lines. I never did anything to rock the boat. I moved to Florida for 8 months. I finally started to figure out who I was and what I wanted in life. I learned a lot about myself. In 2015 I moved back to West Virginia.

 (Let’s clear up the idea that I never did anything wrong and was perfect. Not the case, but I just stayed pretty low key.)

  In 2016, I became an uncle. In 2017, I moved back to Florida. To this point I still hadn’t done much to rock the boat. In 2018 and 2019, I kinda lost myself. I was rebellious for the first time! 

   At first, I thought all was great and was like “Yeah I’m living for the first time in my life” then I realized I was not on the path I needed to be. Things got worse. I appeared to be alright: but, I was not at all. For several months I didn’t sleep well; but, I didn’t wanna stop because I liked the rebellion I had. I liked living footloose and care free in the moment. 

   As much as I wasn’t happy during this time would I change anything? Slightly. But I learned a lot and learned a lot about myself in the process. So I’m happy that everything happened that way. Towards the end of 2019, I finally started to come out of this and started to get back on the straight and narrow.

  I had patched my spiritual relationship and started sleeping again. Then all of a sudden maybe 6 months later, a pandemic hit! Guess what? I thought I had learned a lot about myself in 2018 and 2019 I learned just as much in 2020.

   So here we are 2021 is almost over and for the first time I feel like I finally know who I am and more comfortable in my skin than I’ve ever been. I have learned to accept myself and the way I was made. I am more confident than I’ve ever been but also in a weird way maybe also more humble than I’ve ever been. 2018 brought me confidence; while, 2019 allowed me to retain confidence while regaining some humility. 2020 made me realize what’s important and what isn’t.

   2021 brought me a lot of great stuff through work specifically. There’s been lots of cool projects at work I’ve worked on. 

   You might be in a part of a dance where you're following but trust me, you'll lead again soon enough. It's often just a timing thing. As always feel free to like, share and comment.